Sunday, August 29, 2010
Shooting far
Doing nothing on a sunday sucks totally. HATE IT!
Well. Once again back to the point where all the guys got to book in again. BORING!
Now i just hope my passing out parade will soon be here. Even though it will be 1 month away only, i still looking very much forward to it. Counting down to the day, it seems longer.
One more thing to take note that i got to count down to. My 21st birthday. For all my friends, 21st birthday isn't a simple thing to go pass. This year i really got none of the mood to celebrate my birthday. It is not due to the fact i am single. I seems meaningless in some way. I always hate to celebrate birthday. Especially this one. I don't want to have a chalet or any sort of stuffs.
If there is really one wish that i hope it will come true, that is............
Some of my friends still knows that my heart did not wander off. It is still here. Yet many have already thought that it has already been gone. Reality check once again. I realise being single and alone in this world means that i am being weirder and weirder by day. Not in that sense of weird. Is just that the usual loud and noisy me was toned down to a quieter me. Who will thought that i, Dennis Goh, will grab a book walking down the road reading and almost missing a step or so resulting a fall or whatsoever.
Well. Once again back to the point where all the guys got to book in again. BORING!
Now i just hope my passing out parade will soon be here. Even though it will be 1 month away only, i still looking very much forward to it. Counting down to the day, it seems longer.
One more thing to take note that i got to count down to. My 21st birthday. For all my friends, 21st birthday isn't a simple thing to go pass. This year i really got none of the mood to celebrate my birthday. It is not due to the fact i am single. I seems meaningless in some way. I always hate to celebrate birthday. Especially this one. I don't want to have a chalet or any sort of stuffs.
If there is really one wish that i hope it will come true, that is............
Some of my friends still knows that my heart did not wander off. It is still here. Yet many have already thought that it has already been gone. Reality check once again. I realise being single and alone in this world means that i am being weirder and weirder by day. Not in that sense of weird. Is just that the usual loud and noisy me was toned down to a quieter me. Who will thought that i, Dennis Goh, will grab a book walking down the road reading and almost missing a step or so resulting a fall or whatsoever.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Field camp special
Surrounding with insects, bugs, trees and last of all SOIL! Field camp is over and i am so glad about it. Everyone glad about it. I learnt lots of things about survival. Survival in a forest is just being dirty all over the places. Well, that is just part of the whole picture. When people start to struggle with ways to survive, you learnt that people tend to be selfish in some ways. Being human or not, tendency of people being selfless in this world are getting lesser and lesser.
Selfless or selfish is all in the person's mind. To be truthful, i would also love to be selfish sometimes. Who don't wish to ? To be ignorance over things and keep your ass off everything that bothers you. That is when you see human's ugly side. Being friends or foes, it is lucky i have only 1 more month till i pass out from this BMT phase of mine. Love people in there but in some sense hate some people in there too. Friends are just happy memories that will always be remembered for life but foes are just stepping stones that you will just step on them and leave them behind.
Loving the way i walk this path of mine. Soon we will all know this picture of people true self inside them.
Love today. Finally bought the nike bag i wanted long long time ago. Check list one cleared!
Hong Kong Cafe to home to bugis to pool and to slack and home. Chain of activities. I found the book i going to read next. Under the Dome by Stephen King. Found it at the newly renovated Kinokuniya at bugis junction. Interesting content sparked the inner me making me sure of buying that as my next book.
Days gone by and i feel more and more miserable each day. While the day ended ( even though it was like 2am++ ) as i walk through this path of my life. I totally gave up on love. Looking back how long the very day i broke off with siew eng. Just a gentle reminder to myself. 6 months it will be soon. The very day i made this bold decision of mine to let everything fall in front me. I took a risk that seems meaningless at all. It was March 9 2010. It will always stay fresh in my mind. I lead my downfall and i got no one to blame except myself. I am single because i made a mistake. A lesson learnt and promise not to let my heart ponder around anymore. Like a flame burning, untouchable by bare hands. When will this flame extingush ? Long or short ? Doubts all over.
Selfless or selfish is all in the person's mind. To be truthful, i would also love to be selfish sometimes. Who don't wish to ? To be ignorance over things and keep your ass off everything that bothers you. That is when you see human's ugly side. Being friends or foes, it is lucky i have only 1 more month till i pass out from this BMT phase of mine. Love people in there but in some sense hate some people in there too. Friends are just happy memories that will always be remembered for life but foes are just stepping stones that you will just step on them and leave them behind.
Loving the way i walk this path of mine. Soon we will all know this picture of people true self inside them.
Love today. Finally bought the nike bag i wanted long long time ago. Check list one cleared!
Hong Kong Cafe to home to bugis to pool and to slack and home. Chain of activities. I found the book i going to read next. Under the Dome by Stephen King. Found it at the newly renovated Kinokuniya at bugis junction. Interesting content sparked the inner me making me sure of buying that as my next book.
Days gone by and i feel more and more miserable each day. While the day ended ( even though it was like 2am++ ) as i walk through this path of my life. I totally gave up on love. Looking back how long the very day i broke off with siew eng. Just a gentle reminder to myself. 6 months it will be soon. The very day i made this bold decision of mine to let everything fall in front me. I took a risk that seems meaningless at all. It was March 9 2010. It will always stay fresh in my mind. I lead my downfall and i got no one to blame except myself. I am single because i made a mistake. A lesson learnt and promise not to let my heart ponder around anymore. Like a flame burning, untouchable by bare hands. When will this flame extingush ? Long or short ? Doubts all over.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Field Camp
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Well. It is just one more day to countdown to my field camp. All prepare to turn muddy and punishment coming ahead. All prepared and ready to head off. 6 days of not bathing and tons of sweat coming ahead. It will be a life time experience for me. I have never been to any camps or adventure trips in my life.
Hoping for all the best and signing off short for this post as I AM RUNNING LATE FOR BOOK IN! HA!
Good luck to you guys reading my blog and good luck to me =]
Well. It is just one more day to countdown to my field camp. All prepare to turn muddy and punishment coming ahead. All prepared and ready to head off. 6 days of not bathing and tons of sweat coming ahead. It will be a life time experience for me. I have never been to any camps or adventure trips in my life.
Hoping for all the best and signing off short for this post as I AM RUNNING LATE FOR BOOK IN! HA!
Good luck to you guys reading my blog and good luck to me =]
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Friday, August 20, 2010
Step Up 3 while I Step Down
Friday came. I was barely excited or sad about it. Slightly of a neutral feeling that I wouldn't know how to describe. Well. 7.10pm booking out from tekong and catching a movie at 9.30pm at the cathay wasn't a fun thing to do. Rush rush rush! Time wasn't under my hands. Just yet i caught my movie without fail. Ha.
Well. It was a fun day indeed esp the movie itself. Nice dance move they got there. Nevertheless I can't say anything either since the dancers in the movie itself is already the best in the world as seen on the newspaper. To the people out there, catch the movie before it is too late. Something you cant miss in cinemas now. Thumbs up!
Step down to square one. I know it is hard to face the fact but yeah it is still hard. Ok. What in the world I am saying. Well. Using the word 'But' in a so different manner. I will never going to fall in love again for a long long time. YES. I am saying this out clear to lots of people out there. I going to take this as a vow. I WILL NEVER GOING TO FALL IN LOVE AGAIN ANY TIME SOON. Put it a year or more.
I have decided this so. I am still heart-broken after months. It is snowballing badly. For many people out there, i am stepping down for what i have done. Lets remain as friends to many people that i thought i had hope with. Yes i diagnose myself with this severe broken heart of mine.
With evidences all over again and again. With the third romance book i am reading. I just want to be alone enjoying my life with friends. And purely friends only.
'The last song' the third book. Ronnie and Will. Hope they will have a nice ending since I haven't read the ending of them yet.
To her: It is hard to face the fact that you are gone. Gone with the wind. The rain started pouring in and i am still drenched in the rain. I need a umbrella to cover me off this storm. For every dream that holds you and me, it felt like a thunder that struck me. Many brave souls have survive through this storm as i creep pass this road with flowers intact on the road side. Are we are meant to be ? Are you the one ? I know the sunshine will come one day. I simply just wish that person holding the umbrella will be you. Purely you.
Well. It was a fun day indeed esp the movie itself. Nice dance move they got there. Nevertheless I can't say anything either since the dancers in the movie itself is already the best in the world as seen on the newspaper. To the people out there, catch the movie before it is too late. Something you cant miss in cinemas now. Thumbs up!
Step down to square one. I know it is hard to face the fact but yeah it is still hard. Ok. What in the world I am saying. Well. Using the word 'But' in a so different manner. I will never going to fall in love again for a long long time. YES. I am saying this out clear to lots of people out there. I going to take this as a vow. I WILL NEVER GOING TO FALL IN LOVE AGAIN ANY TIME SOON. Put it a year or more.
I have decided this so. I am still heart-broken after months. It is snowballing badly. For many people out there, i am stepping down for what i have done. Lets remain as friends to many people that i thought i had hope with. Yes i diagnose myself with this severe broken heart of mine.
With evidences all over again and again. With the third romance book i am reading. I just want to be alone enjoying my life with friends. And purely friends only.
'The last song' the third book. Ronnie and Will. Hope they will have a nice ending since I haven't read the ending of them yet.
To her: It is hard to face the fact that you are gone. Gone with the wind. The rain started pouring in and i am still drenched in the rain. I need a umbrella to cover me off this storm. For every dream that holds you and me, it felt like a thunder that struck me. Many brave souls have survive through this storm as i creep pass this road with flowers intact on the road side. Are we are meant to be ? Are you the one ? I know the sunshine will come one day. I simply just wish that person holding the umbrella will be you. Purely you.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Awesome Music and lots of food
Its just enjoyment. Moving from camp to home to orchard to plaza sing to the art house to bedok to eunos to home. Day of travelling but indeed it was a enjoyment. Finally catch inception. Indeed it was a nice show. Complicated yet nice. Dream upon dream. Is ficiton better than reality ? The plot was nice, storyline was nice too and indeed that what was made it a nice show.
People ask. Answer from me. It is indeed nice but no matter it is still a dream. Face reality only with confidence or you may just find yourself trap in a maze within maze. So i asked myself am i in a maze here ? Or it just a way out long ago which i refuse to move out ? Ha. Reflecting myself through a movie sounds rather ridiculous. Well. I guess i am just bored.
Well i bought another book. The last song by nicholas spark. I wanted to buy this book for quite some time already. It took me no hesitance to grab this book off the shelves and went straight to the counter to make payment.
Well. By the time, i was kind of late for the concert. I rushed from plaza sing to the art house and found myself in this Singapore Buddhist Mission Youth Organisation concert. The ticket was $15 but i found myself indulge in this enjoyment by various youth singing and dancing. Even though it was a mini concert organise by them, it was all worth the money seeing the youth at such age bringing themselves to this stage exposing their potential and maybe the chance to shine in front of their parents and friends. We could all see their effort and time they have used for this concert. Heard a very familiar song from the concert and will post it after this post and lastly. Appreciation and respect to them!
By the time it ended, it was already 9.45pm. Went off and walk pass Raffles Place where i caught a glimpse of the fireworks for the opening of YOG at marina bay sands. Went to bedok to find some food to fill up my growling stomach! And lastly i met up with GG to return her book. And finally took a cab back home and for a while being online. I landed myself on my bed.
People ask. Answer from me. It is indeed nice but no matter it is still a dream. Face reality only with confidence or you may just find yourself trap in a maze within maze. So i asked myself am i in a maze here ? Or it just a way out long ago which i refuse to move out ? Ha. Reflecting myself through a movie sounds rather ridiculous. Well. I guess i am just bored.
Well i bought another book. The last song by nicholas spark. I wanted to buy this book for quite some time already. It took me no hesitance to grab this book off the shelves and went straight to the counter to make payment.
Well. By the time, i was kind of late for the concert. I rushed from plaza sing to the art house and found myself in this Singapore Buddhist Mission Youth Organisation concert. The ticket was $15 but i found myself indulge in this enjoyment by various youth singing and dancing. Even though it was a mini concert organise by them, it was all worth the money seeing the youth at such age bringing themselves to this stage exposing their potential and maybe the chance to shine in front of their parents and friends. We could all see their effort and time they have used for this concert. Heard a very familiar song from the concert and will post it after this post and lastly. Appreciation and respect to them!
By the time it ended, it was already 9.45pm. Went off and walk pass Raffles Place where i caught a glimpse of the fireworks for the opening of YOG at marina bay sands. Went to bedok to find some food to fill up my growling stomach! And lastly i met up with GG to return her book. And finally took a cab back home and for a while being online. I landed myself on my bed.
Friday, August 13, 2010
Monopoly and chicken wings
What a day it was yesterday. Friday the 13. The day i did a RT. Many people will think what is RT. Well for people who have finished army or heard of it before. It is called remedial training. Where we all stay back till sat morning then we get to book out. Well it was a interesting night. Indeed it was. The day was the most enjoyable day we had in army. We have nothing to do except sleeping.
It was friday the 13 for a reason for me. IPPT i failed. By 1 pull up or maybe we shld put it as a miscount mistake from the sgt. In army, we call this suck thumb. There is nothing we can do about it. T.T
Well. At least we enjoyed the night. With monopoly and tons of chicken wings to eat. Yesterday ended with a blast.
As for me, I finished reading my book "P.S I love you". Like finally. LOL It does make some sense why do i feel like this after the break up with siew eng. I just fickle around with my mind as i still love her or not. Everyone says time is a healer but in contrast absence makes the heart grow fonder. Every morning i find myself once again single all alone. It seems nothing is healing or maybe it healed but i still cant forget the days we spent every single moment.
Even though I really love my life now. There are still times where I will slow down and think whether i made the right choice once again and continue to move on. The sentence spells this. Yes indeed i moved on. How life should continue or maybe how my future lies i will never know. But just like Holly in the book. At least both of them had the happy moments and just like me and her. The moments will always be there and this will always stay as it will be. I am ready to experience more happy memories and see more of life than staying at this small box.
ALL OUT TO LIFE! CHEERS hahaha
It was friday the 13 for a reason for me. IPPT i failed. By 1 pull up or maybe we shld put it as a miscount mistake from the sgt. In army, we call this suck thumb. There is nothing we can do about it. T.T
Well. At least we enjoyed the night. With monopoly and tons of chicken wings to eat. Yesterday ended with a blast.
As for me, I finished reading my book "P.S I love you". Like finally. LOL It does make some sense why do i feel like this after the break up with siew eng. I just fickle around with my mind as i still love her or not. Everyone says time is a healer but in contrast absence makes the heart grow fonder. Every morning i find myself once again single all alone. It seems nothing is healing or maybe it healed but i still cant forget the days we spent every single moment.
Even though I really love my life now. There are still times where I will slow down and think whether i made the right choice once again and continue to move on. The sentence spells this. Yes indeed i moved on. How life should continue or maybe how my future lies i will never know. But just like Holly in the book. At least both of them had the happy moments and just like me and her. The moments will always be there and this will always stay as it will be. I am ready to experience more happy memories and see more of life than staying at this small box.
ALL OUT TO LIFE! CHEERS hahaha
Monday, August 9, 2010
Sunday, August 8, 2010
The days ahead
Well. I have ended one situation by one situation. Now i am all alone. Heading for a new future.
I stopped all my nonsense with her due to some phobia from her. Refusing to meet me. I was like What the hell phobia is that ? Dennishobia ? Ha. It all ended with a big, i would say confrontation on msn. We kinda blast it all out and settled our stuffs once and for all.
I knew i would kind of regret it as i would just lose another friend of mine. But she could not decide her future so i decided it for her. It was kind of for her own good. I done lots of wrong things in this friendship of mine. Hope she will meet another guy that would love her. Guess i was a big bad friend of her. Well. Good luck to your days ahead w/o me.
Like a bird, i am all free with my wings spread out wide. Looking ahead with a positive mindset.
Soon, I realise i wasn't really falling back on siew eng. Basically i should put it as i had too many memories with her in the 25 months we had together. Everywhere i go, it just contain an image i carry with me. For example, like yesterday i went to ehub for bowling. A image of her and me sitting down at the edge of the shop opening eating some taiwan mee sua, the image where we queue up for cup walker and lastly the part where we shop for sushi at the NTUC. It's all about image and this is what i am. I can't change the fact that i am a sentimental person. All i could do is just live with it. Even though i am gradually losing the feel of me and her. I guess there is a certain percent i will carry throughout my life with me that contains her and the memories we been together. =']
I stopped all my nonsense with her due to some phobia from her. Refusing to meet me. I was like What the hell phobia is that ? Dennishobia ? Ha. It all ended with a big, i would say confrontation on msn. We kinda blast it all out and settled our stuffs once and for all.
I knew i would kind of regret it as i would just lose another friend of mine. But she could not decide her future so i decided it for her. It was kind of for her own good. I done lots of wrong things in this friendship of mine. Hope she will meet another guy that would love her. Guess i was a big bad friend of her. Well. Good luck to your days ahead w/o me.
Like a bird, i am all free with my wings spread out wide. Looking ahead with a positive mindset.
Soon, I realise i wasn't really falling back on siew eng. Basically i should put it as i had too many memories with her in the 25 months we had together. Everywhere i go, it just contain an image i carry with me. For example, like yesterday i went to ehub for bowling. A image of her and me sitting down at the edge of the shop opening eating some taiwan mee sua, the image where we queue up for cup walker and lastly the part where we shop for sushi at the NTUC. It's all about image and this is what i am. I can't change the fact that i am a sentimental person. All i could do is just live with it. Even though i am gradually losing the feel of me and her. I guess there is a certain percent i will carry throughout my life with me that contains her and the memories we been together. =']
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Dilemma
FML. Girls are really a pain in the ass. I am not going near any.
THEY BITE AND BRING YOU UPSIDE DOWN! =]
Single! Brothers! For Life! Woot!
THEY BITE AND BRING YOU UPSIDE DOWN! =]
Single! Brothers! For Life! Woot!
Friday, August 6, 2010
Day 2 of National Day Break
Well. 6 minutes of messaging with siew eng. It was well over. Well time to review on myself. I ask myself at times. Is it really because of my character I have built on over the years that i have never patch with any of my ex-girlfriends ?
On a review from the book i am reading. Holly never knew much of what she is capable of. She was over dependent, when Gerry around. She was over complacent with her life. Living her life revolving over Gerry. It was all well over. Months have passed since Gerry passed away. She still grieved over his death living with letters left by her. Step by step, she walk over the path Gerry setup for her. What a sweet husband she had.
On this very day, I realise my downfall is not only based on me. I met with many people around me. Causing me to fall back once again. I thought you could have been the right one. Now i telling myself to give up on you too. Well. Am i important to you at all ?
Well. I am just going to enjoy myself now and i will never know what my future lies.
SUCK THUMB BABY!
It's National Day
It's national day. The day we, singaporean, all celebrate our country birthday of 45 years of independence. With peace and prosperity in our country, we all enjoy our life with disaster free ( except for excessive rain -_- ).
Another week of enjoyment and events to be coming up. Today will be a slack day for me. Enjoying my tea time snack at Niwa Sushi once again. I don't know why i don't get sick of that place. Memories ? Maybe. Well, at least for today i have my buddy to accompany me to eat there. Well. Had some free time and found out some secret about my buddy. Well. What can i say. Singapore is a small country i guess.
Meet up with tse yun and kevin after that for a meal or two. Playing pool, shopping and never the less SLACKING! Enjoyed today with a blast at least. Guess what its already 2.10am now.
Nicely said. And its time to sleep!
PLAN TO FINISH P.S. I LOVE YOU BY NATIONAL DAY!!! 120 MORE PAGES! JIA YOU DENNIS! WAHAHAHA
To siew eng. I know you are reading my blog. Feel free to comment if you wish to. I am not that petty. And you know i am just joking about much stuffs. If you still take me as a friend, feel free then. =]
Another week of enjoyment and events to be coming up. Today will be a slack day for me. Enjoying my tea time snack at Niwa Sushi once again. I don't know why i don't get sick of that place. Memories ? Maybe. Well, at least for today i have my buddy to accompany me to eat there. Well. Had some free time and found out some secret about my buddy. Well. What can i say. Singapore is a small country i guess.
Meet up with tse yun and kevin after that for a meal or two. Playing pool, shopping and never the less SLACKING! Enjoyed today with a blast at least. Guess what its already 2.10am now.
Nicely said. And its time to sleep!
PLAN TO FINISH P.S. I LOVE YOU BY NATIONAL DAY!!! 120 MORE PAGES! JIA YOU DENNIS! WAHAHAHA
To siew eng. I know you are reading my blog. Feel free to comment if you wish to. I am not that petty. And you know i am just joking about much stuffs. If you still take me as a friend, feel free then. =]
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