Taeyeon (SNSD) & The One - Like a Star

100 posts finally. Bye to this blog. Bye to the readers. And one last good bye to her/you. I gave up trying. This is all i got to say. This song is for you.

Countdown!

It's the last second post that i am going to write. Today have to be one of the most terrible day of my life. I was kind of pissed off and sad at the same time. The things i once thought i would hold forever was thrown away by my beloved dad without my permission. Even though it was all torn paper and photos of me and her. Those were all the memories i had with her. It was sad. I scolded my dad for it. He said i left it there like a rubbish behind the tv. Where else can i put it ? I lost my room to my brother. So basically my room is the living room. I left it there so it will not be spotted. FUK IT MAN! Seriously, he just happily say it was not his fault. He did not even bother to look at it from a different view or ask me whether i still need it. And the best thing he threw in bits and pieces down.

I teared. I was in silence for almost an hour living in a state of what should i do next. Should go there and find it. The feeling totally sucks. It does hurt the heart. I hate it totally.

I hate the part that i dreamt of her almost every single night. Every night without fail, i will dream of her regardless. So vivid that i still have her in my arms yet i live in despair and delusion that everything in life is so different now.

Yes. It was long over. In my heart, it have never ended.