Who cares about my blog ?

I decide to change my blog name one last time. For those who cares, eventually they will find their way here. It is easy but if u don't ever bother, hell yeah who cares about my blog.

It have been some time since i last blog as i know she was having her A's. 2 days ago, she finished her last paper. And now i guess she is enjoying her life.

I told myself i will close this blog after 3 posts till it reach 100. I will keep my words as it is.

To the wonderful ex-gf i once hold dearly. Congrats on finishing your A's first and for most. I just have to tell you something before i close my blog. It will be long long time for us to recover for this fall we had. I left scars all around that will never seems to heal forever. I know at this point of time, it had been long over. I am trying to hold back on how i will let go of this. I seek lots of ways to get over this.

Sometimes i feel down, i struggle to hold on. I ask my ex ( pearlyn ). I still miss you but i know i got to let go some day. She told me this. If you felt this way, what makes you think she don't too ? If it is true, i am sorry. I can't bring myself to move on. I know i lost the girl of my life. The girl that i finally realise i could live with for the rest of my life. Who cares about the flaws you have ? I do have too. My flaws are just too huge for anyone to forgive and forget and lastly to accept. It was all too late to say too much. It's a habit i can't change and i know i won't till i learnt it the hard way.

I got to say thanks for caring for my family especially my mum. You will make her day when you come to my house and have a meal and say her food is nice and delicious. And if you did not know. My mum always like to say. Woah your this gf will know how to eat a lot huh. Well. Secret exposed. Come to think of it. I think you will eventually miss her more than i do.

I am still sorry once again for bring this upon you. I know being your very first boyfriend, i will leave the deepest scar more than anyone else you will be with in the future.

I know you will eventually expect this. I love you still. I am still brave to say this even though i am seeing another girl now. I still hope for a chance for forgivenss regardless what it takes. All the decision lies with you now. I will here to wait for a reply. A reply that may not come.

Monday blues

Monday! Tiring ah! T.T Hope this few weeks faster end! ARGH!

Well. It's nice to slack and slack in camp. It seems to contradict sometimes. Ns somehow grab my life away from civilisation. I kind of hate the life i am having now. It's funny why we got to do all this shit. I love my country but the country got to love us too for protecting it. We got to suffer to learn yet there's just a barrier between us, our family and other friends. Yes we learn. Learn to be independent. Learn to be blah blah. Learn to be ....

After this post, my blog's post count will be 97. 3 more to go. I will officially close this blog.

I will have some words to say in these next few posts that will be coming up.

I am not hiding no where. I am brave for what i say. I don't know what lies in front of me. I hope it is for what it is.

Hedley - Perfect (Album Version)

The long weekend is over!

Finally done with NE project! Long weekend has passed! Loving this kind of weekends. And yes i going to have it one more time two weeks later! Woot! 4th week have gone back. Now the 5th week is coming! 3 more weeks and it will be professional term! Hope i go some unit! PRAY AH! DONT GO Advanced Section Leader Course!

Friday- Chong hung birthday celebration! Hope he love the cap we bought for him! well he is enlisting tomorrow. He is one emo kid! ha. Hope he gets his silver asap! AND BOOK OUT! =]

Saturday- Met up with polymates! Talk cock and sing song! WAHAHA!

Sunday - What else can there be today ? Book in day! T.T DREADFUL AS ALWAYS!


Pray no sign extra! no cos! no guard duty! no confinement! wahahaha! PRAY AH!



Hmmm. Horoscope!

You're entering a period of doubt, especially about your love life. You like your relationships and feelings to be clear. You may think a lot about your relationships over the next few days. Are you sure you've chosen the right person? Are his or her feelings sincere? Could you live without this person? The next two months will bring you the answers. Don't forget, no one is perfect.

The Script - For The First Time

What a week!

Long weekend ahead. Woot.

What a week it was. We shed tears, sweat and blood!

Day 1: We went for a outfield for urban operation at Lim Chu Kang Road. Abandoned HDB flats! What can i say about camps ? We all hate it! Can't bath, shit or all sort of nonsense. Well we are left with the last fieldcamp which is 2 weeks later for this BSLC term! Then it will be unit time!

Day 2: We all came back to company line. Hate this part about field camp too. CLEANING OF WEAPON! ARGH! Only slept 3 hours that night. And guess what. We had a 3 to 4 hours of sleep last night only.

Day 3: Navigation at outfield. It was simply fun. Testing our own direction senses. See whether we will hol lan/ holland! ( Lost my way in hokkien ) Well. It was cool. ( at least i did not lost my way inside ) In addition, i did my night navigation with no torchligh. Simply cool!

Day 4 : The ultimate thing to do in SCS! Tear gas! It just left us all crying our heart out. Ha. Well it was called chemical defence. We all get to wear this jumper suit. =/ It was simply hot. And the last of all that we all love about army. BOOK OUT LO!



I have decided to stop blogging after she finished her exams/ when my blog clocked 100 entires.
I seems lost at this part of my life. Army, her and lots of problem. I can't wait to find back my direction of my life. Step by step, i will slowly find the meaning of my life. The true meaning.

I am left with no choice.